“The man just opened his mouth, which meant that all kinds of secret doors in his body gave way. He did not sing so much as let his soul free.  - Ray Bradbury, "Green Shadows, White Whale"   Pausing is dangerous.  Free time is my enemy.  Boredom is not an option.  Downtime cannot be considered. Last night I was restless.  Those are the worst nights, huh?  When you are quite ready to embrace a good nights sleep and the wide-open-eyed event begins.  I’ve heard some describe it as a blessing.  One individual that I knew who suffered from insomnia dec ..read more

It is an absolute fact that I loathe the mother of my children.  It’s not the best place to be in.  I was taught to love everyone regardless of who they are or what they have done.  I think that you can both loathe and love, but I’m not at “love” with her yet. Have I forgiven her?  Probably not.  These reflections still exist - although no longer daily rants, they still exist.  In “Plan B:  Further Thoughts on Faith” Anne Lamott writes, “Forgiveness means it finally becomes unimportant that you hit back.  You’re done.  It doesn’t necessarily mea ..read more

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“All goes onward and outward, nothing collapses,  And to die is different from what any one supposed, and luckier.”  - Walt Whitman ​  “Life is for the living. Death is for the dead. Let life be like music. And death a note unsaid.” -Langston Hughes I shared lyrics to a song a couple of weeks back that has become my most recent life anthem.  Girls “Hellhole Ratrace” is a beautiful ‘end of credits’ type song that gives me a sense of mission - a feeling of wanting to engage and make a difference and embrace everyone I love at the same time.  This is a rare selection t ..read more

“True spiritual love is not a feeble imitation and anticipation of death, but a triumph over death, not a separation of the immortal form from the mortal, of the eternal from the temporal, but a transfiguration of the mortal into the immortal, the acceptance of the temporal into the eternal. False spirituality is a denial of the flesh; true spirituality is the regeneration of the flesh, its salvation, its resurrection from the dead.” - Vladimir Solovyov, The Meaning of Love “After death something new begins, over which all powers of the world of death have no more might.” - Dietrich Bonhoeffe ..read more

    Cicada No. 7 . 24" x 24" oil on wood panel . 2019 . Amos Oaks “Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favourite wishes every day and death of your whole body in the end: submit with every fibre of your being, and you will find eternal life.” - C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity “Remember Jesus of Nazareth, staggering on broken feet out of the tomb toward the Resurrection, bearing on his body the proud insignia of the defeat which is victory, the magnificent defeat of the human soul at the hands of God.” -Frederick Buechner, The Magnificent Defeat I make effort to deliver col ..read more

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