As a Muslim, I know it's a sin to believe in such things like tarot reading, fortune teller, magic and etc etc. It is a sin as it will seem as though you doubt the Almighty Allah S.W.T. Well, I don't think its wrong to just listen and know how it works for knowledge purposes as long as your "niat" or your sole purpose is only for knowledge and knowledge only. I don't think God will restrict ..read more

"All I wanted for you is to be okay. Look what you have to me?" The stage is broken., Everything is ruined, The truth was spoken, All bare out in the open.  Maybe it was a little too late, My honesty should have come,  From the very first date, But I chose to not speak,  I was determined to wait, 'Cause I was afraid that I'll lose you And that's the truth, I hid all my greys ..read more

I have a song that reminds me of you When it comes on, oh I really listen to it Don't like to remember that I never see your face Don't like to remember that my memories now seem faded So I'm here telling you Darling, I think about you Even though you ain't around I have a place that reminds me of us No not much was said there but for me, that was enough I like to remember what it was to be ..read more

I guess I do speak about it a lot. And I guess I am a negative aura. And I guess I come off as a person just not thankful for anything. I am nothing but thankful for most of it, I am thankful to the Almighty God Allah S.W.T for giving me the chance to make things right. My life isn't all that bad. I know there are people out there going through even tougher challenges. I'll be lying if I say ..read more

People often assumed that HIV is a death sentence. Some often think that a person may die from HIV. There are still many of us out there believes that there is a risk of being infected even by way of kissing or by sharing utensils and so on. I certainly don't blame them. It is definitely not in a school syllabus, or even a chapter of a subject, for example, Biology or Science in general. We learn ..read more

James Arthur may not be as dramatic as Lady Gaga but that doesn't mean he was less emotional.  I think this song has taken ballads to a whole new ballgame.  This is a beautiful song. I don't think of it as a sad love song.  I think its a very sweet song being the receiving end of course.  Like the dude must have been really special for her to be willing to wait for him, no matter ..read more

So, I quit writing for about exactly 10 years. Well, I guess I am taking up the advise from my very dear friend Tareq. For the past years, I've always questioned myself, what is it that I actually like doing? What am I good at? What is my strength? Took me awhile to realize it, but I do love writing. I am very expressive. I love sharing stories. There will be no more lies. I want the world to see ..read more

A lot has happened in this past 10 years. I was a cabin crew for about 13 years with 3 different airllines, AirAsia being the last before joining a local chain of hotels & resorts, Avillion. I think I've never shared the true story of why I left the "glamorous" life of a cabin crew. I think I crafted a story of why I left to gain sympathy from them. Today, I'll be telling the truth.  I don't ..read more

I don't know exactly how I was infected. I don't know if it bothers me that much. I think it was 2014, the year when my temporary high had taken over me. I was out of my head. The first scare was after my Bali getaway that year. As usual, a girlfriend of mine introduced me to her friend, a local. We went out, and obviously, he spent the night. It was a holiday fling gone wrong. I remember ..read more

We met in Jakarta last April. Was introduce by a girlfriend of mine back during her college years here in KDU. Both are locals from Jakarta. It was at a club Zodiac. Apparently a big thing now in Jakarta. I was seated at the bar, nervous, three glasses of different kind of cocktails and suddenly this lad walked in the entrance and caught my fullest attention. Dressed in a white sweater and ..read more