On this second day of Christmas, as the secular world rushes thru the season of Christmas in just one frenzied morning and just one night, allow yourself the time to breathe in the reality that Christmas time has just begun! The Sweet tender Babe in the manger is Still there! He is waiting for you to come and visit Him! While the rest of the world throws away the tree and tucks away the fantasy of Santa and his magic elves and reindeer, for next year, allow yourself to live in the Truth of Christ and the reality of His Birth. God So loved the world that He sent His Son born of the Virgin Mary ..read more

one goodbye was just not good enough. so i had to drag it through, and be drug through this series of long goodbyes that causes me to crumble and lose a bit of myself each time i do. the rainy days are hardest when the windows are so fogged with mist, missed….missing…u. the aching, it starts over and anew. but I have made myself a promise, this will be my last goodbye to you. i can’t keep losing myself the way I do, over something like this, over someone like you ..read more

“Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord, let it be done unto me, according to Your Word.” Mary, Mother of Our Lord Jesus. Mother of God, Mother of us all. As we contemplate the Blessed Mother, we are first struck by Her humility. Of all the creatures God created, She is the most humble of all. With Her great docility, She was able to submit, wholely and completely to the Will of God. It wasn’t as if She said yes, with any sort of hesitation. She did not say “Yes” and then hold back any of Her being. She was, as they say ‘ All in,” even though She did not fully understand the message the angel b ..read more

Miles stretching as far as the eye can see,  And breezes traveling from across distant lands, not only can we see, but also hear the wind rushing through the valley, up over and around each bend, the wind speaks. Climbing the steep inclines, we buckled down  and dug deep inside our core, and also in the dirt on the climb up. The path riddled with rocks and roots. sometimes struggling to keep our eyes off our feet. Look up! God is is the blue, blue sky, the mist of clouds that roll And settle in, above me the heavens. implore me to think about them,  to lose myself in dreams. sto ..read more

arriving here so close to You in the Eucharist I sense that fire that burns within You. The fire burning, that calls to me, ‘Draw near…” But in my human weakness I am afraid I see my faults, my failings… they are closer than You, Oh Lord. Closer…beating inside my heart, woven into my very being by my own hand. Oh Lord, I see the Fire within You, I want to say “Consume me Lord! Consume me.” Help me to see past my sinfulness Help me, Oh Lord, to draw near, to pull in tight and unite my sinful heart to Your Sacred Heart burning like the purifying fire that will rid my soul of all stain of sin. al ..read more

i find that i am no longer looking for you  everywhere i go. i have gotten used to the quiet solitude of praying without your voice in sync with mine.  and that special dialect of your tongue, is foreign once again. It feels like it is all behind me now,  in the past. that stabbing pain of missing, has numbed, not totally gone and forgotten… but numb. i didn’t think these days would come, But here we are,  with miles and months stretching between us…. i can look back and see things differently. Closeness does that sometimes, doesn’t it?  It blurs the view and makes one ..read more

i don’t expect that my words should amount to much. after all, without the appropriate actions to match them, they are just empty vessels floating on the waves of this raging sea. out of control and without direction, they contain no viable substance… no promises of life, they are merely wasted, whispered promises, words without worth ..read more

Sometimes this pain feels like it has merged with fear of the vast unknown. it is like i am standing on the pond in spring, and the ice slowly begins to crack, wanting to run, but knowing that i can’t move forward, i can’t move back. i must just remain still, hoping and praying that i will be saved.  when Christ does come to me, it is not the Resurrected Lord in all His Glory, it is the Agonizing Lord, nailed to the Cross, with the Face that most men shun and turn away from… including me. and all He wants of me is that i should just love and kiss Him. Kiss the wounds that cover Him, knowi ..read more

i do not wish to hurt you, friend. i wish that i could just love you and that you would love me, honestly, without holding back. but underneath the surface there is a past, a hurt that we have pushed aside but without forgiveness it is not erased. there it sits, gleaning our life as it’s own. it grows with the grumblings of pain and angry words, which do nothing but erode the friendship we once had and guarded so close. what happened to us that we have become so jaded and unwilling to trust? i know enough to know that there is no ever going back, and that the path ahead is forward facing from ..read more

Sometimes we try and fool ourselves into thinking that the little lies we tell others, will hurt no one. Sometimes, we change things around or we take something that we think no one will miss or that no one will be bothered by its absence… but they are. And we tell those little lies….those little “white” lies that we have convinced ourselves are fine to tell. We think no one is getting hurt. But by allowing ourselves to dip in these pools of tiny untruths, we are conditioning our souls for failure. Failure to live in honesty and integrity. Failure to live, or to speak what is true. We are tear ..read more