That’s it, the number one question lately…”why no tie?” That is the number one question on my work email. Some of the inquiries are a little on the angry side: What happened to your tie? Are you too cool to wear a tie? Why are you so casual? Please put the tie back on to keep your level of professionalism high for you and your peers. Yes, those are real emails I have received. okay, so let’s talk about the tie. it is a simple 2 word answer: Skin Cancer, again. (oops, 3 words) It literally hurts to wear a tie, the knot rests right on the area where a couple of deep scars now sit. It rubs the ar ..read more

The target of this round of topical chemo is the area around my mouth. My mug, my trap, my yap, my kisser, my pie hole, my bazoo. The result is not pretty and very uncomfortable. Truth be told I have never been considered pretty. I have, however, been called pretty weird. So I have that going for me. Thanks to this topical chemo I now have Lips resembling Steven Tyler. Inflated, but with the added bonus of blisters. I broke down last night. I took a pill for pain. I hate those things. They leave me loopy and tired but at 4 AM I was ready for relief. Now I am loopy and tired. A blur of white fl ..read more

I love chicken wings. My wife rolls her eyes when I order wings. Sometimes it is in a rather fancy establishment, but I love em…I love chicken wings. I don’t like them too hot. I can do without the really, really hot sauce. The kind no one wants to try. The kind that hurts as much going in as it does coming out. You win a free t-shirt when you eat a dozen wings. THAT hot sauce. That is the way my lips feel …inside and out. There are no wings, just fluorouracil. Topical chemo cream. A penalty for worshipping the sun. A penalty for thinking that having a tan meant I was were healthy. It hurts. N ..read more

It ain’t much but it is the only face I have. Years ago this was the face that never looked quite right in the mirror unless I had a tan. It is also the face that my wife still seems to like even though it is seemingly past the young nubile skin warranty phase. My face, this face where the latest blip of squamous cell cancer popped up last month. This is nothing like my Squamous cell cancer 3 years ago. That was a large tumor. I lost a third of my lower lip. This discovery is small. Beside my redesigned, slightly smaller lip. Almost in the same position you would find a cold sore. Are you read ..read more

It arrived, a little early, but nonetheless it is here. You know that zing-bam-pow feeling that happens in your mouth when you bite on tin foil? That is a side effect of this topical chemo cream…and it arrived today. The result of having to use it on my lips and mouth area where the latest blip of squamous cell cancer showed up last month. Same area where squamous cell cancer stole a third of my lower lip a couple of years ago. The problem, other than cancer; I love coffee. I really love coffee. My wife laughs at me because I sometimes chug my coffee. Now it tastes like caffeinated tin foil. B ..read more

My first day 3 was back on January 6, 2017…and this one feels eerily similar. My skin has started to feel tacky and at times my lips do in fact stick together, and it is not lost on me that some folks applaud that lip sticking together thing. The headaches have started early and light sensitivity can make it hard to be in the studio at times. These are the side effects of Fluorouracil, my topical chemo cream. Thankfully this is just a short version of what was a nasty 40 plus day chemo ride a couple of years ago. Now I wait for the cream to do its job. Like a wild fire it will attack skin canc ..read more

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