After my therapy session today I came out with one question: how do you live? This whole process is so confusing and uncertain. For months it feels like I've been wondering aimlessly in this therapy process and I'm not sure what I need. I feel like there’s this general assumption in therapy that I’m more functional than I am. That I have responsibilities I’m content with and all I need help with is being functional around those responsibilities. We talked about needs we talked about friendship and routine but at the core it's like there something about life everyone understands fundamentally ..read more

The level of boredom I experience now is painful, and I'm just curious if eventually normalcy will feel less excruciating. Until I started my healing journey, I lived with the mindset that my life wasn't great but it wasn't terrible. As I worked through EMDR therapy, I realized my life was a constant barrage of traumas that just felt normal to me. I grew up with teenage parents, undiagnosed ADHD and apparently spent the majority of my life disassociated. I went through the motions, learned to protect myself and felt like I just powered through. I'm not sure I still truly fathom the extent of ..read more

A common experience I've been experiencing in my healing journey is that, I'm being introduced to things that have always been this way. I guess you could call it "normal" but it's new to me. Which is a confusing experience to experience. How can something that has always been there this whole time, and has never changed, be new to you? It really spins and shifts your perspective around on a lot of things, idk submitted by /u/TitleHairy49074 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

That’s how traumatized I was submitted by /u/Significant_Tax472 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Here’s a list of what I saw. “Zoo porno dog fucks girl” “Real dad fucks his dumb daughter” “rape of virgin girl” “ugly rape” “dad walked in on her” “down syndrome dog” “teen with big boobs” “ugly chubby daughter” “animal sex dogs fucking girls fuck compilation” “dog licking peanut butter off women” “doggy wants to join masturbation” “my dog licks my clit” “childhood nudism” “father deflowers virgin daughter” “father fucks his schoolgirl” “lolita” “forced to please her kidnappers” “i said no” “ugly rape” “drugged girl raped” “terrible real rape video” I was his only daughter. Is this good enou ..read more

They literally navigate life with absolutely no pressure. They’re just their imperfect selves doing a bunch of “going through the motion” things while my existence is constant stress the pressure Disassociation etc submitted by /u/Significant_Tax472 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

So the other day I was telling my therapist about how I try to avoid as much as possible to be out in public lately because I’m absolutely terrible at knowing how I feel until it’s too late and it reaches a breaking point when I’m out, I struggle to feel that something is wrong and keep pushing into discomfort until it passes a threshold of no return and I can’t really stop a crisis from happening anymore, which isn’t a problem when I’m at home. The topic of alert service dogs was brought up, since warning you something’s up is one of the things they do. I know service dogs can be great for a ..read more

The other day I had a breakdown. I’m getting married in about a month, and my fiancé is the best man I have ever met in my life. He is kind and patient and forgiving. Ive done bad things in my life, I’m bipolar and I spent a lot of time undiagnosed and unmedicated, and I did stupid things during those times, including hurting him. He forgave me, I worked really hard to get better, and our relationship is great now. I’ve done bad things and hurt people, but I know logically that I’ve done a lot more good things. Somehow I still feel fundamentally wrong and like I am a bad person at my core. I ..read more

Content warning: child sex trafficking. Whenever I try to get support I will usually find some mental health forum, preferably for trauma. I talk about the fact I was trafficked at 2 years old, and people become very distant, wont interact, wont give advice, wont give support, they wont even tell me they are sorry, its as if I nearly become invisible next to everyone else's stories. Because of this, I often will tell myself what happened to me must somehow not have been that bad, because no one interacts, no one tries to help me. Then i get filled with jealousy, seeing everyone around me get ..read more

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