Whenever I mess up or make a mistake or am late or irresponsible, forget something, etc. my immediate thought is - how can you blame me, I have CPTSD. its become a really shitty excuse, and quickly veers into victim complex. Last night I went out and did not come home and either I left the kitchen sink running very slowly or my cat touched it and because there were too many dishes in the sink, it ended up causing a leak in my downstairs neighbors apartment. I was asleep when they texted me at midnight, meaning someone had to come out and turn the water off for the ENTIRE building because I di ..read more

I know its normal given the circumstances I grew up in but I am scared of people. Ironically I also can’t ever be alone otherwise I start to spiral. I’m about to graduate soon too and just feel really lost. Watching other people go be happy with their families makes me feel like I did something wrong in life. I’m happy that they have that connection and support but I’m so jealous of it. I don’t have any direction/ motivation to find a path and it feels like my life is about to end. This is logically for sure an exaggeration but there’s a void inside of me that makes me feel the need to cry 24 ..read more

from the earliest and really only remaining memories of my childhood, i recall going over to female friends houses growing up, and telling them that i wanted to “hump them”, and ended up doing sexual acts with them.(i am also a female). i was in kindergarten. i also was a compulsive masturbator from the same time up until i was around 10, doing it daily, constantly. i always feel so horrible and disgusted with myself for making other children do sexual things with me when i was little, but i dont understand how i could have known sexual terms and ideas without some sort of sexual abuse. i was ..read more

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i don't know exactly where to post this so sorry if this is the wrong sub reddit im having a full on breakdown over my cat. he's perfectly healthy but im clinging onto his body like he's about to disintegrate. he's 10 years old and im crying thinking about the possibility of me having only 5 years left with him and i know this is a situation basically all pet owners can relate to. but it got me thinking how im just so unbelievably scared of losing all of my connections to the past. i feel like my childhood friends are slipping away from me, my grandparents from both side of the family have pa ..read more

Hi all beautiful people. I don't know what else to say, except, I'm sad we are such a big group. But I'm glad to be here. I'll make popcorn and pancakes for our inner children to hang out anytime they want. submitted by /u/hobbit_mama [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

You are brave. You are kind. You can get through anything. Your past was defined by circumstances outside of your control. Your future is what you make of it. It’s full of possibilities and light. It’s not your fault. Even if that negative voice in your head tells you so. Find your own voice and let it shine. It’s ok to slow down and heal. Tell your inner child all the loving words they need to hear. You are so strong, so resilient, and so deserving of love and acceptance. I see you. I love you. I love you. I love you. ❤️ I’m currently going through a traumatic response cycle caused by childh ..read more

It's challenging for me to put into words what I'm feeling right now. I'm struggling to discern whether my thoughts are genuine or just my mind playing tricks on me. This tendency to downplay my own issues or dismiss them as attention-seeking behaviours might stem from my upbringing. For instance, when I had trouble seeing at school and reached out to my parents for help, their response was "you just want attention." This pattern has persisted, making me question whether I'm genuinely experiencing these emotions or merely fabricating them. Oh, and by the way, I did need glasses. There is some ..read more

What I'm posting is rough, but I'm actually a rough guy: I don't believe that someone who is born and raised in a dysfunctional family will ever be a person, a human being, yes, but not a person, because they lack a fundamental attribute.. if you are aware of people who look away from a homeless person on the ground because he/she disgusts them, you know what I'm talking about. I was born as a tool; a fetish existed just to satisfy the morbid urges of people without a soul. I've already accepted the damage, and I hope at least I don't have to accept the damnation. All I want is for death to g ..read more

Several things have been happening in my personal life all at once and the stress is just too much. My mom told me she was leaving my dad, dad going to alcohol treatment, my dog died, my friend is moving out of state and i’m trying to find an apartment. All of that happening all at once. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t think my body knows how to handle this stress. I missed like almost a week of work. Luckily my job is pretty understanding but now I’m so behind and I literally can’t add another stressor. I cannot do it. I am trying to see if i qualify for a leave of absence but my work ..read more