Hi there, I haven’t had bottom surgery. At this point in my life, I can’t tell you whether or not I will. I have all the referrals and paper work done and even had a consult with the surgeon but I’m feeling stuck. There are a couple reasons why I’m putting off making a decision. One is that I’m allowing space for myself to really figure things out sexually. For a long time, my sex life consisted of what I thought I should want or what my partner wanted of me and it’s left me feeling like I truly don’t know what I want. The second reason is that my cancer diagnosis after my hysterectomy left me ..read more

Hey there, I’d be up for chatting with you sometimes. I also found some Facebook groups and other spaces where I met other trans folks that I could talk to. Might be something you can try, if you haven’t already ..read more

5 days post-hysto! So far, my recovery has not been what I expected. Most of my pain and discomfort came from the gas they pumped into my body cavity (the procedure was laproscopic). It’s finally almost all gone now but it was very uncomfortable for the first two days and nights. I also struggled with the pain medication being hard on my stomach. I have a sensitive digestive system anyways, and I tried to balance the pain vs taking more meds. I’m only taking Tylenol since yesterday and that’s been a big help. I did not have much bleeding for which I’m very grateful! It stopped after one day. M ..read more

Two days ago, I got my hysterectomy done! I took this picture yesterday right before taking my first post-op shower. The surgery itself went really well and I came home a few hours after waking up. So far recovery has been a bit rough but I’m feeling better by the hour. Hard to say how this will affect me as my body adjusts to the changes. I’ll try to post an update in a few months to talk about that. (6 ½ years on T and post chest surgery ..read more

2 weeks post op and 6 weeks on T vs 6.5 years. It’s hard to believe that it’s been over 6 years since I started my physical transition. I am so fortunate to be happy and living my best life (pandemic excluded ..read more

Bottom Dysphoria - A Series I recognize that I have spoken very little about my relationship about the “bottom” portion of my body in the past. I feel like it’s time for me to open up about this for two reasons. - Sharing helps me process how I’m feeling. - There isn’t very much information that I’ve been able to find on the subject so I want to add my voice. I generally try to stick to short posts so I’ve decided to create a separate Tumblr to include the bulk of the details. I’ll probably still have some content here, on my main blog. Click here for the new blog @mybottomdysphoria-aseries ..read more

How to bind your chest safely and healthily Hi there, I’m glad you’re reaching out with your question. Your sibling is lucky to have you as a support person. The two simplest things to help keep binding safer are not too tight and not for too long (most suggest an 8 hour daily maximum). The other thing is what is used to bind. There are a few ways to do it safely. Here’s a link with more info. There are many more like it, some will have specific product suggestions as well. https://www.minus18.org.au/articles/how-to-bind-your-chest-safely-and-healthily Binding was not an option for me, my dysp ..read more

Facial hair update. A few weeks shy of 6 years on T. Definitely a lot fuller than a couple years ago. This is about week and a half since I trimmed down to 3mm. Gradually filling in some of the sparse spots and closing the gap between my mustach and cheeks. I normally wear it like this and enjoy it thoroughly ..read more

Let’s talk about emotional health. For the last few years, I’ve felt a sort of emotional numbness. I assumed that being on testosterone had simply changed how I feel my emotions. While I still think that’s true, I recently concluded I also have a lot of emotional pain and trauma that I just repressed as a survival tactic. I realize now that I need to work through all that stuff in order to be truly myself. I’ve reconnected with my therapist and and committing myself to figuring this stuff out because I deserve it. I deserve to heal from the pain of living most of my life in a body/identity t ..read more

It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these and I am feeling great today so I figured I’d post this. The picture on the left is me around 6 months on T and post op. The one on the right is 5 years on T and post op. There hasn’t been any dramatic changes in the last few years other than a few tattoos. I mostly look my actual age now though which is awesome. I feel amazing these days. I got married last month, my career is fantastic, and I’m working on finishing my bachelor’s degree. Overall, life is really sweet. I’m incredibly lucky and grateful ..read more