The triplets are officially 3. I don’t even know where the time has gone.  This year they each told me a specific color when I asked them what kind of birthday aprty they wanted to have. So, naturally, a rainbow themed party was fitting. Not only that, but they are my rainbow babies and this theme was perfect to ring in 3. I am so excited to share with you all the details from their adorable birthday party and how it came together. This year we decided to have a very small birthday party with just the family and it was perfect!  This theme was so fun and really can’t help, but make ..read more

Somehow the summer slipped through our fingers and here we are just a couple weeks out as my triplets (and myself) prepare to start a new journey: Pre-School. I am not sure I am ready for this next part of their journey, but I know they are. I hope more than anything as they grow in their schooling years they always remember the unique individual beauty that comes when you simply #beyourself This is a key element in our parenting.  We need to raise our generation to know how loved they are and the incredible beauty that comes in just being yourself. The triplets are excited to ..read more

SEX after kids. How accurate is this?! I’m pretty sure I can count on two hands the number of times we had sex the first year after the triplets were born. Okay, I might be exaggerating, probably just one hand. When it came to sex or sleep, sleep ALWAYS won (and sometimes still does). And then there was the first time we had sex since my delivery. O M G. I wish I could tell you it was romantic, but, well it wasn’t. I was knee deep in my postpartum struggles, exhausted, and pretty nervous about the whole sex after childbirth thing. Did I mention it hurt? Here we are 9 years married, and 3 yea ..read more

Dear Anxiety, Do you remember the first time I even recognized your presence as a new Mom? I remember it like it was yesterday. The triplets were just weeks old. They cried all the time. It was before we knew they had GERD and the sleep deprivation was ruining me. It was the middle of the night and our boys wouldn’t stop crying. Do you remember yet? Everything I knew to do to as a Mother to help them wasn’t working. I could feel the panic rising in my body. I was sweaty everywhere! I cried so hard weeping with my babies, “I don’t know how to help you.” And I didn’t. I was tired and frustrated ..read more

Several Weeks ago a friend of mine, Maya, reached out to me and asked if she could share her story and battle with Anxiety and Depression with me. I was absolutely blown away. I have known Maya for years (since I was in middle school) and I never knew my friend was going through so much.  She is so strong and so brave to be willing to share her heart, her story, and her battle with you.  These are her words and I hope you are  encouraged to share your struggles, get help, and know you are not alone if you are struggling with any of these feelings! “Today is a day of reflection ..read more

I’ve been a Mom for almost 3 years now. During those 3 years I have been on and off anxiety meds. The journey has not been the easiest, but I have learned about who I am as a Mom and become so much stronger because of the journey. When I was 3 months postpartum I finally saw my Doctor to get some help for the major baby blues and extreme exhaustion I was feeling. I was struggling at this Mom gig. I have never struggled with anxiety or depression until I became a Mom of triplets. The lack of sleep was tortuous and my anxious heart was crippling me. I was fearful of everything and my heart was ..read more

“You’re f***ing miserable all the time.” The words someone told me when I was neck deep in my postpartum struggles. Words that weren’t supportive. Words that just made feel worse about how I was already feeling. If you would have told me that just weeks after my babies were born I would experience postpartum depression I wouldn’t have believed you. I waited years to finally become a Mom, I didn’t think the “baby blues” would even be in my vocabulary. The truth is the postpartum blues, exhaustion, and the lack of confidence as a Mother can sneak into your life overnight and it is paralyzing. Th ..read more

Where do you go to hide to deep breathe before you go all monster on your kids? To inhale a sandwich or a homemade cookie so you don’t have to share? My bathroom break moments are usually always the deep breathing kind of moments. Although every now and then I just need to peacefully eat a peanut butter cup. My kids are far from perfect and they really know how to throw a good tantrum. Those moments can be incredibly overwhelming. They are a trigger for my anxiety and sometimes result in panic attacks. After going to therapy last summer, I learned a lot about myself and how to help my anxiety ..read more

I never even knew I could get so angry until I had babies. I am embarrassed to even admit it, but it is true. The mean mommy in me, my angry side, is one of the reasons why I found myself in counseling last summer. I had to do something to help me control my anxiety so it wouldn’t hit the point of anger. It was a side of me I felt only the triplets were having to bare and it made me feel awful. My anxiety tends to fuel (for lots of reasons) but especially when all 3 of my kids decide to throw a tantrum at exactly the same time. No one is patient and everyone is screaming, crying, kicking-you ..read more

Sometimes we face things that are really hard to process, work through, and overcome. About a year ago, I told a friend who was struggling with infertility that I would be her surrogate if it came to that. After much hope for my friend, she finally conceived. My heart was overwhelmed with joy. As time went on, I still felt like it was on my heart to be a surrogate so we found an agency to work with. We met with my Doctor to discuss surrogacy and if the complications during the delivery of my triplets would prevent me from even qualifying. “You have 3 beautiful babies at home that need you,” s ..read more