So today, the mental health worker came by to see me. She told me that either I said I was still suicidal, or had to go back to the nursing home. She said that if I didn’t say I was or if I knew I wasn’t, they would make a safety plan and send me back there. How can I send you back to somewhere where I’m being verbally abuse and a nurse even said that she violates HEPA all the time? Over the last three months 42 places have rejected me either because of my blindness or my past with self injury. They judge me by what they see on paper, not the human being as a person. Today, my foster family ca ..read more

The person who was supposed to get discharged from the state hospital didn’t get discharged, and they don’t know when this person will be discharged. I know I am here through the weekend. The mental health worker came to see me earlier this morning and she promised me she would be back to see me later today, but she never came back. I have a cardiology appointment next Wednesday. My heart rate is fine when I’m laying down and sitting up, but when I stand, my blood pressure drops and my pulse goes up. Right now, I have a double ear infection and a hole in my left eardrum. The doctor told me las ..read more

Hi all, I’m hi all, I’m still in the ER at at least until Monday. I am watching HGTV and now I have a medical bed which is more comfortable. The thing that worries me is that according to my medical bed I weigh 54 kg or 119.05 pounds. Last Wednesday I weighed 136. I don’t know how I could’ve lost that much weight in a week The bad thing is is that it’s triggering me to go back into eating eating disorder behavior. My altars are doing relatively well except for Amelia and all of hers. I’m feeling really hopeless because places are telling me they can’t except me because of my blindness. I even ..read more