Life is full of challenges and don't we know that's true, so much has happened in both our lives that have shaped us into the people we became. I believe the biggest challenge for me was coping with the fact that you weren't coming home from the hospital, and knowing I won't ever get to give you one more hug; to walk in your house and chat while making dinner, while the others went to Grandma, all your wonderful stories (I'll definitely be telling my children), gardening together, celebrating my achievements (you were always so proud of me). I won't ever get to have one last birthday or Chris ..read more

This is going to be a very short blog post as I'm not mentally well enough to put all my focus into this, hence why I've not posted on my blog in a long time; so here goes nothing. Over the past few months but especially this month I've had plenty of trips to A&E, one for physical reasons due to me not eating and passing out so needed to be checked out to make sure there's nothing too concerning going on. Thankfully there isn't so I can carry on the way I am, especially since I'm not able to get help with my eating disorder. On the other hand, there have been numerous times that I've had ..read more

One Whole Year!!I've been dreading this day for a while now, I didn't want to be here for it because I knew how much I'd struggle. The way this event has affected me over this past year is horrible, I've self-harmed, restricted my food intake, abused my body and made attempts on my life. Physically I'm recovered from that night, mentally I've not, and I'm still a long way off being recovered. That night one year ago, everything changed. He ignored the "no" "leave me alone" "get off me", etc; he didn't care about what he was doing, he didn't care that I didn't give consent, he didn't care that ..read more