One of the coolest things about having this blog has been its ability to grow with me. As I’ve changed, it too has changed. I love that I have a record of what I was experiencing and the way I was feeling up until a couple of years ago, because honestly, if I were to go off my own recollection (now) of those days, I don’t think it would be a very accurate depiction. I think I would downplay it, because in many ways, it doesn’t even feel like it was my own life. I’ve actually found that I’m able to tell it more accurately when I tell it as a story, as if it were about someone else! This year ha ..read more

Hi, Everyone! I posted this on my Instagram account yesterday, but realized that I have followers on my blog that don’t follow that, and who could possibly benefit from this input as well. So while I’m not going to take the time to write any more right now (honestly, I could probably write a few pages worth of opinion, based on my own experience…), I’m copying what I wrote on my Instagram to share here. If there’s one thing that I get asked about more than anything (In regards to managing recovery and exercise), it’s these little devices. They can be SO useful for so many people, but they can ..read more

Hi, again! If I thought winter term was crazy, I had another thing coming for me just a little ways down the road. The last couple of weeks have consisted of studying for (and taking, and passing…and getting grades that I am VERY pleased with!) final exams for my five classes, packing up my house, moving all of my stuff from Corvallis and back to Portland, many “last hurrah” festivities with all of my fellow college-graduating friends at school, beginning celebrating each of my four friends who are getting married THIS summer, one being tonight (and two are in Bend…of which I’m a bridesmaid in ..read more

It’s been a while since I last sat down to blog. I’d like to credit it to not having the time, which I could probably do. This term has by far been my busiest yet, with taking 19 credits, being a manager of the gymnastics team, which includes being at all practices and meets (including travel ones), having a boyfriend, spending time with my other friends, working out, and staying committed to my faith. In all honesty though, this blog just hasn’t been a priority for me recently. And while I was feeling a decent amount of guilt about that for a period of time, I’ve reconciled it. For a good chu ..read more

Hello Everyone, Well, I don’t have anything big to report this time…and I’m thankful for that! My weight’s held steady, all of my other bodily functions have continued to occur like clockwork as they should, and I’m happy. My final Fall term of my undergraduate career is wrapping up, and BOY, I can’t believe how fast it’s gone. All of you who haven’t gone through college…It’s true that it FLIES by! I was asked the other day if I’m ready to be done with college (though I am still planning on going to nursing school), and my answer was a very firm “No”! I’m having an absolute blast this year. I ..read more

Hi Everyone! I just had to pop back on here to share an update of some VERY exciting news. Drumroll, please… I started my period today! For the men that are reading this (which I know some are!) I’m sorry if this seems like TMI, but I didn’t feel I could not blog about this. I haven’t had a period in 19 months, and a regular one in five years. A period is symbolic of so many things, the most important to me being that my body is finally returning to a state of equilibrium. I have had to work SO hard to get my period back this time around. Each time I’ve lost it, it’s been hard to get it to ret ..read more

Anniversaries are a funny thing. Depending on what they are in remembrance of, they can bring up all sorts of different feelings. Sometimes, the same anniversary can elicit two different reactions, depending on the year, or your state of mind. Six years ago, on this day, I was hospitalized for anorexia. I am so happy, proud, and encouraged, that today, I am celebrating. I’m celebrating where I am now, in contrast to where I’ve been. In years past, this hasn’t been a happy anniversary. It’s been a reminder of the battle being fought; a reminder of how much effort was being required every. singl ..read more

If I had a penny for every time someone asked me about my tattoo, I’d be a rich lady! And for the sake of this college girl’s wallet, I WISH that were the case! Nevertheless, I get asked about my tattoo a lot. I love that. It’s part of the reason I decided to get it in such a visible place, because I knew it would be a great conversation starter. It definitely has been. I’ve been asked about it by strangers on the MAX, professors in a college class, baristas at Starbucks, sorority girls during RUSH…the list goes on, and on, and on. I get asked about it so frequently, that I feel like I should ..read more

Hello there! It’s been a while! And I am happy to say that this is 100% a good thing. My life has been busy this summer, but I am so happy. With the exception of doctor appointments (and even those are beginning to dwindle a bit), my life has consisted of “normal” 20 year old busyness, and I am so, so thankful for that. It dawned on me this morning (while I was coaching at swim practice, and had a fresh blackberry that one of the lifeguards offered me) just how far I’ve come in the last few months. I don’t want to toot my own horn, but MAN, I almost started crying as I thought about it! I didn ..read more

Well…I finally did it. I’m there. As of Thursday, June 29th, 2017, I am officially, 100% weight restored. I have never restored this much weight without re-entering inpatient treatment, and I am so proud of myself. To celebrate, that night my mom, brother, and I went to a Brad Paisley concert. I’d actually purchased the tickets for us a while ago (it was a birthday present for my mom), but it was quite convenient that it fell on the same day as one we wanted to celebrate! We planned on eating dinner there, but didn’t know what would be available. Yes, if you’re wondering, this in itself was a ..read more