The past half a year was the toughest on me to get through, first I got into a blindsided break up then 3 months later I lost my job and I’m in another country away from my family and friends. Last month I found a new job and moved to a new city, things started to get a bit better then as I started the new job I started missing what I had before and sometimes wish things stayed the same, then I tell myself that this also is gonna end and a better season of my life is coming, I’m extremely lost and honestly I can’t see an end to this, I don’t wanna die but I wish I was dead already. I don’t kn ..read more

Feeling down about a breakup submitted by /u/halpell [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

So while my girlfriend and I were living together I experienced severe delusions (I was diagnosed with schizophrenia a very long time ago and have been very open about it to her and her family). I believed I had a career that I didn’t, finances that I didn’t, an education that I didn’t, and success that I didn’t. When it all came out, my girlfriend and her mother assumed it was pathological lying as opposed to delusions… but after increasing my dosages of olanzapine, abilify and rexulti the delusions went away and I’m feeling much better now. I stayed in touch with my then-ex, but after a lon ..read more

When I was scheduling an appointment with my pyschiatric NP, the receptionist told me that soon Medicaid in my state, among other insurances are going to stop covering TeleHealth therapy services. I am absolutely LIVID. You see, the only way I can do therapy successfully is via TeleHealth (Zoom). When I’ve gone into the office a couple times it’s made me feel absolutely uncomfortable. In fact, I was so uncomfortable when I went to therapy several years ago that I quit therapy. And the only reason I agreed to go back last year is because of TeleHealth. I should also mention that I see a diabet ..read more

Either seeing people being nice or seeing something creative and beautiful idk I’m not used to this frequency of happy crying I’m used to hurt crying. Am I happy and hurting every time? I’m familiar with that feeling but I’m not feeling the hurting part lately just the happy. Do I need to up my lithium? The fuck? Wanting to cry is a huge physical thing so I have to let it out and this is exhausting as fuck submitted by /u/OkRequirement849 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I’ve been on a low dose for 15 years to help sleep. Losing my health insurance and decided to try to cut down on my daily meds. Will I ever sleep again? submitted by /u/marukobe [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Why do I like pretending I'm a dog? Or even someone (jokingly on their end) treat me like a puppy or dog, like the dog voice. I pretend it's a joke but inside I feel weirdly happy and excited (not aroused "excited", just excited) I love acting like a dog, from growling when angry or hear something around me when I'm supposed to be alone. Or barking and chasing birds in parking lots. Or that weird happiness when you see another dog and start playing with it. And these habits, like the panting when tired, the weird thing where it feels like I have a tail and/or ears??? Being treated like a dog ..read more

Lets help each other out! If you are getting a panic attack while being alone, no friends or family. What helps you the most? submitted by /u/NeuroAamon [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I can’t explain it all in depth here (cause I’m too lazy) but here’s my rant. schitzotypal is the closest I’ve found to my experiences so far, but honestly, I don’t really know. It’s like psychosis except always, even the tiniest bit of me, knows it’s false, even if I’m almost completely consumed by it. Sometimes I sense presences, I often see things behind/peeking at/ hiding around me. Sometimes I feel like there are spiders on my scalp, and every night I have to say good night to all the entities and dolls in my room equally to make sure they don’t kill me out of jealousy. I’m paranoid to s ..read more

A person gets zoned out often and suddenly whole body starts shivering and that's when the subconscious is taking over or I dont know what is. But after the shivering, the person's palm is tightly closed and not shaking anymore but you have to hold their hands specially and the legs tightly because next they are going to grab the necks of people around them and try to get up in a very aggressive manner, definitely intended to destroy everything and kill everyone. Person shouts with deep pain in voice, laughs and suddenly cries. Person doesn't open their eyes but when they do, the subconscious ..read more