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By: Christine Louis de Canonville WHAT IS COERCIVE CONTROL? Coercive control is a pattern of psychological and emotional behaviours (i.e. intimidation, humiliation, threats, etc.) that enforces the perpetrator’s rules on a victim through varying levels of abuse and degrees of severity. The tactics are intended to create a state of fear and subordination (especially in the victims of domestic violence) for taking away their sense of liberty. Apart from causing psychological harm, the coercive control may also escalate into inflicting physical pain or injury to the victim, especially when the perpetrator wants to enhance the credibility of a threat. WHAT IS THE DEFINITION OF COERCIVE CONTROL BEHAVIOUR? Defining Coercive Control marks a huge step forward in tackling domestic abuse. According to the Domestic Violence Act (Ireland), the definition of Coercive Control states: – “Coercive control is formally defined as psychological abuse in intimate relationships that causes fear of violence or serious alarm or distress that has a substantial adverse impact on a person’s day-to-day life, manifesting as a pattern of intimidation or humiliation involving psychological or emotional abuse.” (Domestic Violence Act). IS COERCIVE CONTROL A FORM OF ABUSE? Absolutely, coercive control is a form of abuse. It can involve a variety of criminal offences (i.e. assault, rape, damage to your property, even threats to kill, etc.). The repeated behaviours of coercive abuse are ultimately about owning and controlling the victim, with the express intent to remove their freedom. It has nothing to do with “love”, it is predatory “obsession” which means that it has everything to do with: – psychological assaults, passive-aggressive insults, ultimatums, and a general loss of “liberty” for the victim. However, many victims (whether male or female) who are being ‘entrapped’ are highly unlikely to recognise this cunning covert aggression at the beginning of the relationship. This dynamic is specifically designed to set the victim up for disempowering them.  Gradually, over time, the perpetrator instils fear in the victim, causing them to deny their negative emotional responses, and give the control of the relationship over to them. The victim, like the proverbial frog in the simmering pot, has no idea that they are being “psychologically boiled alive”.   When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! Join the 10,000+ people who receive bi-monthly articles and information to understand narcissism and stay safe Success! Name Email Subscribe SIGNS OF COERCIVE CONTROL Coercive control describes an ongoing and multipronged strategy, with tactics that include manipulation, humiliation, isolation, financial abuse, and stalking. It can also include mental, physical or sexual abuse of the victim. The perpetrator’s nefarious wicket actions are carried out in clever increasing and intensifying increments. This insidious and calculated controlled assault on the victims are often described as “death by a thousand cuts”; For example: – ·Being isolated from your family and friends. Being deprived of your basic needs (i.e. Food, medication and comfort). Being financially deprived of your own money, and having to account for the money you do spend. Losing control of your everyday life (i.e. where you go, whom you can see, what you wear, what you can buy, etc.). Being threatened with violence if you do not behave in a certain way (i.e. how you clean the house, cook the meals, perform in the bedroom, etc.). Controlling your reproductive choices and sexual health (i.e. forbid the use of contraception from protecting you from STD’s or unwanted pregnancy, etc.). Being controlled as to where you work, and what type of work you do. Being stopped from working or going to school/college/university, etc. Having no authority over your accounts. Controlling everything within the household (i.e. deeds of the house, telephone, utilities, passport, etc.). Monitoring your activities, movements and communication (i.e. emails, social media, spyware on mobile phone & computer, etc.). Threatening to publish information about you to everybody, the police and authorities. Insisting you answer their phone calls within a certain number of rings. Being deprived of sleep. Subjected to constant criticism, humiliation, intimidation and degrading name-calling. Being repeatedly put down, telling you that you are worthless. Enduring mental, emotional, physical and sexual violence. Having your property or household damaged. Forcing you to be part of their criminal activities or child abuse. Threatening to harm or kill you and your children. These are just a few examples of coercive control tactics, but the list is endless. This subjugation of the victim occurs against a background of entitlement and inequality. Each “cut” serves to dramatically reduce the victim’s “space for action” by curtailing their freedom in different ways; for example: – Freedom of Movement (i.e. Giving the illusion that victim is free to make independent choices, however, the perpetrator uses jealousy to justify and control when they can speak to anybody else, control where they go, what they read, what they wear, etc.); Freedom of Association (i.e. Speaking on their victim’s behalf, interrupting their conversations, filtering whom they see or speak to, limiting their outside involvement, etc.); Freedom of Finances (i.e. not allowing any financial independence, monitoring what they can spend, preventing them from working outside the home, etc.). Once the narcissistic perpetrator manages to isolate their victim and instil in them a trance of fear, they become much easier to control. In effect, the victim’s sense of personal agency is vanishing little by little, and soon they may even begin to doubt their sanity. This form of intimate terrorism creates a feeling of tyranny and entrapment in the victim. This is the reason why it has become a criminal offence under “coercive control legislation” in intimate or familial relationships in several European countries since 2015. WHAT KIND OF PERSON IS LIKELY TO CARRY OUT COERCIVE CONTROL IN THEIR RELATIONSHIPS? The most likely candidate to be coercively controlling in their relationships is a person with a Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD). NPD is one of four recognised Cluster B personality disorders as defined in The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5), Narcissism is a spectrum disorder, and we all exist somewhere on the continuum. That means, as humans, we are all narcissistic to some degree, and indeed need to be for remaining healthy. A certain number of narcissistic traits (self-centred characteristics) are required for healthy living and survival, and they also contribute to our confidence, resilience and driving ambition. However, the higher up the spectrum an individual is, the more pathological their self-centeredness becomes.  They then develop deeply ingrained and pervasive patterns of behaviour that become the diagnosable mental illness referred to as narcissistic personality disorder (NPD). Narcissistic Personality Disorder is, therefore, a mental condition in which the individual has an inflated sense of their own importance. Their inflated sense of self-esteem leads them to believe that they are more important than they are; consequently, they develop fantasies of power, wealth and omnipotence. They view themselves as superior beings. Their arrogant, haughty sense of entitlement leads them to think that they are above the normal rules of society, and therefore deserving of special treatment. To support their fragile ego, their lack of empathy for others and their sense of entitlement allows them to act out their callous behaviours and exploit their victims (their narcissistic supply). Because narcissism is a spectrum disorder (from the classical narcissist, malignant narcissist, and psychopath), the higher up the scale, the more dangerous their behaviour becomes. For example, their ego-syntonic sadism makes them predators with a tendency to destroy and dehumanize others, and their lack of conscience (often due to brain damage) can make them potential killers. WOULD IT BE CORRECT TO SAY THAT SOME PERPETRATORS OF COERCIVE CONTROL WOULD HAVE A NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER? The simple answer is “yes”. Many of these individuals will have a pathological narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) that will have gone undiagnosed.  The criteria for diagnosing an individual with NPD show a pattern of behaviour that can be found also in those individuals who carry out coercive control against their victims. Often narcissism, with its psychological abuse patterns (i.e. its blend of ambient abuse behaviours for instilling fear in the victim, and coercive control behaviour for getting dominance in the relationship) can be found in perpetrators of intimate partner violence (IPV). A lot of the time, the perpetrators means of controlling the victim can even look like affectionate expressions, for example, “I am only hard on you because I love you”.  However, the terror they incite is unintelligible to the victim, and cleverly leads to their being in a dominant-subordinate relationship. All too often, NPD, anti-social behaviour and coercive control go hand in hand with each other. Narcissistic Personality Disorder is not as rare as one may think. I would make a conservative estimate and say that it affects about 10% of the general population (psychopaths being between 1% to 2% of that population), although other researchers would say it is much more prevalent. HOW COMMON IS COERCIVE CONTROL? Coercive control is very common, much more than it is recognised.  According to Safe Ireland, 580,000 women in Ireland have experienced this form of abuse, however, they do not report on how many men experience coercive control in their domestic violence situations. Furthermore, we should remember that coercive control does not only happen in domestic abuse situations, but it can also literally happen in any intimate relationship (i.e. in the workplace, or friendships, etc.). As Evan Stark showed, coercive control is part of the total model of domestic violence that take away a person’s fundamental human rights of autonomy.  It is always present (to some degree) in relationships where there is domestic violence and intimate terrorism, especially when carried out by a partner (male or female) with a narcissistic personality disorder (NPD). Research in England shows that 30 per cent of women (about five million), and 16 per cent of men (two and a half million) experience domestic abuse during their lives. According to Caitriona Gleeson of Safe Ireland, an EU Study in Ireland has shown that about one-third of Irish women have been in a psychologically abusive relationship (unfortunately she does not mention figures for male abuse). David Walsh, Chairman of Men’s Voices Ireland (2017), spoke out, saying: – “Men assaulted by their partners are often ignored by police, see their attackers go free and have far fewer refuges to flee to than women.” One of the most authoritative studies made in Ireland (the NCC Report of 2005) reported that when all cases of severe abuse were counted, the rates for men and women were almost equal (26% versus 29%). Domestic violence needs to be treated as a genderless phenomenon; it is not only as a female problem.  For that reason, I would say that coercive control is a much bigger issue than realised. Indeed, femicide has been identified globally as a leading cause of premature death for women, and femicide appears to be on the increase. According to Criminologist, Monckton Smith (2017), where there is a presence of domestic abuse, coercive control or stalking, there is a strong possibility of femicide being carried out. Power-control killers get gratification by having power over their victim. We need to be aware that “Power” is the hallmark of pathological narcissistic abuse in all their relationships, domestic and otherwise.  According to the Forensic Psychologist, Howitt (2006), dominance is the motive of the stalking and the killing. He states: – “94% of stalkers of women were men. Most significantly, 48% of the stalkers were intimates of the women in the sense of being a past husband or partner or having had a brief sexual relationship with the stalker. On average the stalking continued for 1.8 years.” So far, the majority of research is failing (or refusing) to connect up all the dots when it comes to fully understanding coercive control. It is not enough to know and name the behaviours without linking it to the type of person (both male and female) who are most likely to act out such gaslighting behaviours that toys with a victim’s sense of reality.  What is gaslighting? Gaslighting is a form of psychological abuse used by all pathological narcissistic perpetrators to instil in their victims an extreme sense of anxiety and confusion to the point where they no longer trust their own memory, perception or judgement. The goal of the perpetrator in this form of abuse is to use a blend of fear (Ambient Abuse) and domination tactics (Coercive Control) for gaining power and control over their targeted victim, and strip the victim of their self-worth and agency. All these behaviours are “red flags” that point to a perpetrator (either diagnosed or un-diagnosed) to be an individual with pathological narcissism. The general public has a right to this information because they need to know how to identify when they are in a relationship with such an individual. It may help them to leave the relationship earlier when they realise that all the “love” in the world is not going to change their abuser. This information may also be important in the Courtrooms when these cases are brought before a Judge. Judges could be given the power to request that an assessment for NPD be carried out on these abusers, especially where there is shared co-parenting. Unfortunately, even when the relationship seems to be over, many narcissists are likely to continue making their demands on their ex-partners, and they will continue to attack, threat, and intimidate them, to the point of sabotaging their mental health. COERCIVE CONTROL LAW IS COERCIVE CONTROL NOW AN ILLEGAL OFFENSE?- Yes, coercive control is now an illegal offence in 5 countries in the world: Ireland England Scotland Wales And France I am delighted to say, that on the 2nd January 2019, legislation against coercive control in domestic violence came fully into effect in Irish law (under both civil and criminal law). Coercive control is officially a crime against liberty in Ireland. The Irish Domestic Abuse Law follows the approach of Scotland’s Domestic Abuse Act 2018, whereas, the other three countries that have introduced the new Domestic Abuse Act seem to differ somewhat from each other (i.e. England, Wales and France). Before this new legislation in Ireland, domestic violence had been seen primarily as physical abuse, it did not recognise the damage done by psychological abuse. HOW WILL THE NEW LEGISLATION IN THE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE ACT AFFECT VICTIMS? I cannot speak of the effects for all countries who have introduced this new legislation to reform their Domestic Violence Bill, however, I can speak of the changes made to Ireland law.  Before this new legislation in Ireland, domestic violence had been seen primarily as physical abuse, it did not recognise the damage done by psychological abuse. Therefore, psychological abuse, where frequent low-level violence was accompanied by other coercive controlling tactics was not considered to be criminal, therefore, as a crime, it had no legal standing. With this new Domestic Violence Act in Ireland, any victim living in an intimate relationship (i.e. including cohabitants, dating partners, spouses, civil partners, parents with a child in common, parents of an abusive adult child, and people residing with the respondent in a non-contractual relationship) can now seek the support of the Irish Courts to protect them from the abuse of coercive control. The victims will be able to apply for remedies such as safety and protection orders (i.e. Barring Orders, Interim Barring Orders and Emergency Barring Orders that can last up to 8 working days) under the Domestic Violence Act. This will apply regardless of whether they are cohabiting with their abuser or not. Furthermore, there is no longer a minimum period of cohabitation required for cohabitant applicants. The new law will also mean that the court services will be obliged to offer the victims information on domestic violence support services, and also be able to recommend programmes for the perpetrators (i.e. addiction and counselling programmes). The law will also allow the victim to give their evidence both in civil and criminal cases by link television, and they may also appoint an expert to assist the courts to check out the children’s views where a barring order is sought on behalf of the child. This new Bill also completes a major step towards Ireland’s ratification of the Council of Europe Convention on preventing and combating domestic violence, known as the Istanbul Convention. WHAT ARE THE PROFESSIONALS ON THE FRONT-LINE OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE SAYING? Regarding these new measures, the CEO of Safe Ireland (2018), Sharon O’Halloran said: – “This is ground-breaking and momentous because it means that we will have, for the first time, a robust legislative foundation that recognises and responds to the pernicious pattern of control, dominance, inequality and psychological abuse which is really at the heart of violence within the home.” Director of Women’s Aid (2018), Margaret Martin, said: “I think it’s really interesting that this sort of abuse has been recognised because the thing about domestic violence is it is very much a pattern of different behaviours and very much repeated behaviours, and most crimes are about one single incident of assault, [like] burglary etc.” THE EFFECTS OF THE NARCISSIST’S COERCIVE MIND CONTROL TACTICS ON THE VICTIM: Controlling and coercive behaviour tactics that are employed by the narcissist are carried out over a continuous amount of time, forcing the unsuspecting victim to adapt to a series of small “invisible” steps. The “continuous timer” is an important factor in the whole process of mind control, because the tactics must be carried out in incremental steps, it cannot be seen to be rushed. These steps need to be sufficiently pocket-sized so that the victim does not fathom out the coercive nature of the processes being used against them, or indeed, for becoming fully cognizant of the personality changes taking place within themselves. Unfortunately, because the abuse is so insidious, most victims fail to work out these covert psychological gaslighting behaviours that are causing them so much anxiety and stress. Therefore, they fail to put up the ego defences normally reserved for adverse situations. This has a detrimental effect on their critical thinking abilities, and their free will; both of which impair their ability significantly when having to make independent decisions. In short, the psychological effects of gaslighting are such that they violate the victim’s fundamental human rights, keeping them in slave-like.. ..read more
By: Christine Louis de Canonville The Child in the Mirror When you become the dedicated keeper of a narcissist’s emotions and needs as a young child, you do not learn how to take care of your own needs first.This does damage to the relationship with yourself, but you have no awareness of that.  To put oneself first feels alien, and very selfish, not to mention somewhat disconcerting. Gerard (my brother) and I became so enmeshed, that much of the time we did not even have to speak, instinctively I knew what he was saying (negatively or positively) with a look, a nod, a laugh.A lot of the time we were the best of friends, once he got his way, he was the most fantastic company, and I loved being with him. But there were times when the enmeshment felt both oppressive and damaging to my identity. Merging with him was dangerous, especially as I desperately desired to be in his company, while also equally desperately fearing him, both magnifying my shame.These were the times when he stamped on my character, controlled me by not allowing me to play the game in a certain way, or not agreeing with me on a different game plan. For example, because he was at an age when girls were stupid, I had to adopt the persona of a boy.  I could not be Christine; I had to be a character named John, otherwise, I could not play.This may sound like a small thing, but for a child to have to deny their gender, feelings, and not make “silly” mistakes during play, amounts to a high level of deprivation.To be accepted, I had to send my feminine side into hiding, and then my altered ego John could play, making me feel okay and safe with Gerard. When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! Join the 10,000+ people who receive bi-monthly articles and information to understand narcissism and stay safe Success! Name Email Subscribe I did not fully realise it at the time, but I was deprived of my female feelings while in the mindset of my altered ego John.I very much got the message that there was something terribly wrong with having a girly feeling (i.e. being afraid, sad, angry, etc.).  These feelings were not okay when I dared to express them, and this toyed somewhat with my emotional reality.  Even right into middle-age, I would have to struggle to express vulnerable feelings in front of others because they would readily trigger my shameful feelings of being weak, inferior and “girly”. In those moments, the old script would play out in my head, and rather than being emotionally rejected by my brother, I was abandoning myself.  Interestingly enough, when I witnessed vulnerability in others, I immediately jumped in to rescue them from the shame I assumed they were feeling. Once again, this led to putting other people’s needs before mine, as I would drop whatever I was doing to rescue them. Although I was too young to understand, I did feel not being allowed to be myself as an attack on my identity.  That being a girl, was without a doubt, inferior to my persona John, the one Gerard approved of.Most of the time I was passive to his demands of becoming a separate identity for his imaginary world of play, and in some way, this enmeshed us further through our fantasy world, where we were both budding heroes. Always violence threatened our relationship, and the enmeshment played its role in placing me into the caretaker role I found myself in, a character I lived in for a great deal of my life. From a very young age, my brother and I wrapped ourselves up in a quilt of shame.  This is how we both survived the harshness we were subjected to.Gerard, whose shame-prone teachers projected their pain on him as an innocent child; and me, whose shame-prone brother projected his pain onto me, his innocent little sister. A tragic happening for both children. In total, I have found myself in the co-narcissistic victim position on four separate occasions during my life.  Of course, the conditioning began for me very young, probably from the day I was born.This, I believe, was the day that my brother felt usurped from his position as “the baby” in the eyes of Mum.  He was only four years old when I was born, up to then he was the baby of the family, and I must have come as a bit of a shock to him when I unwittingly took my mother’s attention away from him. When Shame Begets Shame ..read more
Entering The Narcissist’s Maze Of Confusion All pathological narcissists, when they look into the mirror, see a superhero; someone who is intelligent, assertive, mentally healthy, highly attractive, and worthy of admiration. I don’t think they seem to care if they are particularly seen as friendly or likeable. They believe that they are more intelligent, and indeed more competent than everybody else, especially when it comes to their co-narcissist caretaker victims. So naturally, to them, they have earned the right to be in their prestigious seat. The amazing thing is that narcissists do seem to make a good impression on people at the beginning of the relationship (during the Idealisation Stage), even with those people who pick up on their narcissistic cues. In the beginning of the relationship, the pathological narcissist is excitingly intense and appears to be full of spontaneity. However, due to their negative interpersonal style, it does not take long before healthy individuals come to view them in a negative light. Those who are most in danger of their seduction are people that have already been conditioned by another narcissist sometime in the past, especially as a child. These damaged individuals tend to tolerate them and accept their behaviour as quite reasonable, and so they will enter the dance (especially those that have learned to do so in the earlier previous relationship). To fully understand narcissism, research needs to take broad multiple perspective approaches to get to know what a narcissist is like, both on the inside and outside. For example, there is a need to study the narcissist’s personal self-perception. How they see themselves, and how they think others see them, especially their poor interpersonal style? When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! It is useful to know how important it is for all narcissists to shine. If they cannot shine in a person’s company, they are likely to lose interest in them and move on to a new source of supply. Not being seen to be special seems to cause them unease and distress. For that reason, they are particularly drawn to seek out co-narcissist victims, many of whom are empaths. These individuals are willing to accept them as they see themselves, they are not going to compete for the limelight or attention that the narcissist craves, and they will compassionately hold them with a good heart. It is important also to know, that in the early stage of all their new relationships, the narcissist gets all the positive feedback that they are looking for, this ultimately confirms their sense of entitlement and superiority. Of course, as the relationship progresses, their less attractive characteristics begin to slowly emerge (i.e. envy, exploitation, arrogance, etc.). Generally, narcissists do not expect long-term relationships, they have grown accustomed to people coming into their lives and leaving them. In these short-lived relationships, they are not necessarily looking for approval or concerned about what the other person feels. Therefore, all things considered, they are unable or unwilling to change their negative behaviour. Getting their needs met is their end goal, not genuine reciprocal relationships. They are not interested in making any changes to their conduct. Therefore, all the changes for accommodating the relationship will become the responsibility of the caretaking co-narcissist victim. As co-narcissist victim, it automatically becomes your responsibility to make monumental changes that aid the relationship along with your narcissist with the least conflict. So much of the caretaker’s time goes into keeping the relationship on an even keel and this tends to keep the focus off what you need from the relationship. Unfortunately, the relationship rests on a foundation of fantasy. You met the beautiful Dr. Jekyll side of your narcissist in the beginning of the relationship, and you long for that side to return so that everything will then be alright. In the meantime, the co-narcissist keeps the tragic secret of the dysfunctional partnership from not just the world, but also from their own self by repressing the reality of the problem. By doing that, the caretaker is isolating themselves from concerned family and friends. They have caught sight of the elusive Mr. Hyde, and feeling their warnings are falling on deaf ears, they begin to withdraw their support, and with it the likelihood of much-needed reality checks for the victim. When one takes on a caretaking role in their family as a child, there is every likely hood that you will continue to take on that role in all your adult relationships. It becomes second nature to you, and you are unlikely to be even aware of it, putting everybody’s needs before your own. This can present itself in many ways. For example, growing up with my pathological brother, I was intent to make myself invisible. This spilled over in my not wanting to cause any trouble anywhere, i.e. with any authority figures, especially my parents and teachers. I became a little helper (i.e. cleaning the house, shopping, putting on the dinner, obliging, setting up visits to the elderly, etc.). As a defence mechanism, this “pleasing behaviour” was a good way to make me feel safe, and to also regulated my fluctuating self-esteem. I was both uncomfortable with conflict, and sensitive to others pain. So, it does not take much stretch of the imagination to see how I was destined to become the harmoniser who brought peace to the family. But this also affected my identity in the narcissistic relationship with my brother. The consequences for my behaviour is that I became over responsible for my tender years, and this took some of my innocence away. In many ways, I was a 15-year-old going on 25. I was the serious one out of all my friends, the one who everybody came to in order to solve their problems. Even my friends got in on the act. They discovered that they could go places if I were going too, because their parents saw me as responsible, therefore a good influence on their children. In many ways, this stunted my playfulness, looking out for everybody, watching to see if my peers were drinking too much and putting themselves in any danger. I never learned to depend on others to look out for me, and thus, lost myself in a fog of over responsibility. In this way, most co-narcissists become over responsible and automatically take on the responsibility for others without being asked. This becomes their fixed pattern, their learned behaviour because of growing up in a household with a narcissist. In my case, I was being forced to act more mature than my years could carry. My brother set rules and expectations for me that he failed to achieve or honour himself. Naturally, this made me angry, and most of the time I was not able to express that unfairness for fear of reprisals. Consequently, even today, I cannot stand by and watch injustice in any shape or form being done to anybody. So clearly, I still have unfinished business to attend to. ..read more
By: Christine Louis de Canonville Excerpt from book: When Shame Begets Shame Victimisation of a child’s boundaries: Boundary problems can be seen in all kinds of relationships with others; however, it is most likely that boundary conflict occurs in the early years of life when the child is learning to separate and individuate.  It can be a difficult time for everybody, especially as the child is learning how to build their character on the appropriate use of the word “No”. During this phase, the parent’s patience will be tested, however, it is crucial that the child is allowed to experiment and practice their disagreeable behaviour without having the love withdrawn from them. The child needs the connection to the caregiver to remain constant while they push the boundary out further, and that is very important.  It is alright to be angry with the child as you correct their difficult behaviour, appropriate expression of anger teaches them what is acceptable and unacceptable behaviour about cultural social norms.  This protects the child from being disliked by others in the community. However, to detach from the child sends out a totally different message: “You are only lovable to me when you behave a certain way”.  The feeling of abandonment can be so painful that the child may over accentuate their compliant, loving, sensitive nature, and grow to fear and mistrust their more assertive parts.  They will even hide their anger for fear of further rejection because fundamentally, every child needs to be loved and to belong to feel safe. When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! My attachment bond to both my parents was very healthy, they always made me feel very loved and safe.  However, what was not so safe was my affectional bond to Gerard, and this attachment bond played havoc on my sense of boundaries. As Gerard was four years older than I, we were, for the best part good companions.  The attachment bond I had with him made me feel a sense of security a lot of the time.  In a way, he provided the outlet for my sense of being needed, and when things were good, he provided me with a sense of worth and competence.  In his absence, I missed him and felt lonely.   I thought of him as my best friend, and the affectionate bond, despite the difficulties, was indeed long-enduring (approximately 40 years).  He left home when he was seventeen, I was thirteen years old at the time, and I can remember feeling the inexplicable pain of separation, and then the joy when once again I was in his company. But because of the secure base my parents provided me with, I could be confident and engage with other friends.  I think, from a very early age I provided Gerard with some relief from the rejection and abandonment he was experiencing in the brutal school he attended.  Even back then I was playing a protective caregiving role, and he could confide in me in the knowledge that I would keep confidentiality. I think the “big brother” caretaking role that he adopted with me also helped him feel more secure, more in control and less helpless.  Indeed, he did provide me with comfort and care when things were good with him, and that was the Gerard I loved to be with. It is understandable that the reader would wonder why I would not set limits.  The answer is simple really, to set a limit with Gerard was to risk upsetting him, throwing him into a rage, and then losing the relationship.    This rejection happened enough times early in our childhood, often leaving me feeling isolated and alone until he was ready to forgive me once again for some misdemeanour or other. I needed the connection with him to feel secure around him.  Of course, this left me a prisoner to his wishes, I became his little puppet, where he, as Puppet Master pulled the strings. In this primary trauma-bonded relationship that lacked good foundations, how could I ever hope to build healthy boundaries?  I found my boundaries being violated in many areas for a great many years of my life.  Boundaries affect every part of us by defining what is me and what is not me. For example, our physical boundaries define our sexual and body space.  Our mental boundaries define our freedom to express our thoughts and opinions.  Our emotional boundaries define our freedom to feel our own emotions.  Our material boundaries determine who we share our belongings with.  Our spiritual boundaries relate to our beliefs, values, potential, aspirations, dreams, goals, etc.  Our first boundary is our body, yet many children who are physically or sexually abused have their bodies violated.  A second boundary is our words, and the most boundary-setting word we have is being able to say “no” to the demands of others. Time and space boundaries allow us to get a breakaway when we are feeling overwhelmed and unsafe.  However, it is important to remember that it is hard to protect one’s boundaries as a child when you do not understand that you are being manipulated and violated, and especially when you are given little scope to make mistakes and learn from them. Growing up in an environment of narcissistic abuse is very traumatic and confusing for any child.  The narcissist projects their needy and vulnerable self onto their co-narcissist victim, coercing them to take responsibility for surrendering to their needs.  Whenever there is any confusion regarding responsibility and ownership it is always a problem of boundaries. However, the co-narcissist child soon learns that failing to conform will be met with bitter disapproval, and not feeling safe enough to say “no” whenever the need becomes terrifying.  Rather than developing an “I-self”, the co-narcissistic victim develops a “we-self”, where everything revolves around the other. Fearing to say “no” to a narcissist because you are afraid of the consequences of their anger fosters a pattern of obedience and compliance.  That affects boundary development, not just in early life, but throughout one’s entire life as the co-narcissist melts to the demands and needs of others and becoming cemented in a “pleasing stance”.  Of course, boundaries are not meant to be walls that are fixed, they are more like fences, that are flexible to be moved whenever necessary.  But when in a relationship with a pathological narcissist, it is not easy to maintain or move one’s boundaries, unless you are willing to accept the consequences. A big part of the recovery work with the co-narcissistic victim is for them to learn how to define the boundaries between self and other.  From their earliest beginnings, trying to contend with the restraints and servitude of the pathological narcissists “gaslighting behaviour” would have been a continual source of struggle for the victim.  This struggle would, without doubt, have contributed to their life-long boundary dilemma. Defining the Boundaries Spectrum (from poor to healthy): When we talk about boundaries, we are talking about both the physical (our body and material possessions), and psychological (those that define us as separate and individuated from others).  It is this demarcation of self that define where “I” begin and “others” end.  Boundary strength, according to Nina Browne (2006), can range on a spectrum from poor to healthy (i.e. soft, spongy, rigid, and flexible). For example, when our boundaries are soft, we have poor boundary strength.  We feel so much for people that we find it difficult to say “no” to their demands, thus leaving ourselves open to be taken advantage of. When we have spongy boundaries, we have little control over what we let in or keep out, therefore become overwhelmed by other’s emotions.  We are likely to have difficulty holding our ground even when we know we are being manipulated. When we have rigid boundaries, it is likely that we have experienced physical, emotional or psychological abuse.  We are so walled off that others cannot get close to us. We find it difficult to trust people or feel safe and use our rigidness to protect us. When we have Flexible boundaries, we can decide what to let in or keep out.  We make our own choices regarding what we will do or will not do, and we can stick to that decision, not allowing ourselves to be manipulated into doing something else.  Therefore, we are harder to exploit and manipulate, and our shame and guilt are harder to trigger.  We can both give and receive support and treat others with respect.  It is especially important to have clear strong boundaries when you are dealing with a narcissist because if your boundaries are not sufficiently developed, they are likely to turn you into an extension of themselves.  Also, it is best that you do not over empathise with them, by doing so you open yourself up to their projections (the toxic shame that they cannot tolerate in themselves and want to dump on you), and projective identifications (their shame that you unconsciously take on). Narcissists cut across every border they can to get full control of their co-narcissist victim: It is well documented that pathological narcissists have very poor personal boundaries, and therefore they do not recognise the boundaries of others.  Stuck in the psychological stage of growth, they see their victims as extensions of their self, to be used and controlled for self-gratification.  Narcissists cut across every border they can to get full control, leaving their co-narcissist victim with distorted, and undefined boundaries.  The co-narcissist is not usually aware of how inadequate their limits are, and this leads to them having a sick sense of who they are, and what their personal needs are. Probably the most important change the co-narcissist (victim) needs to make, (if they want to move out of the Caretaker role), is to set healthier personal boundaries.  Boundaries are what separates one person from another, and essential for making us who we are.  They house one’s thoughts, sense of responsibility, needs and wants from another.  Most importantly, boundaries are a way to describe our spheres of responsibility: what we are and are not responsible for (Cloud & Townsend, 1992).  I have found co-narcissists to have well established functional boundaries, where they fail miserably in their relational boundaries.  What does this mean?  It means that when the co-narcissist has a task to complete, they perform that task with a high level of competency.  This is where their perfectionism really kicks in, but in a positive way.  However, when it comes to their relational boundaries, they are less able to tell a friend that they don’t like their chronic lateness, or how they talk over them in company.  Boundaries are not inherited; they are built as our character forms during childhood through either our supportive or unsupportive attachments with others in our environment. Where my parents may have provided a healthy separation-individuation process for my developing healthy boundaries (i.e. hatching, practicing, and rapprochement), Gerard, my “fledgling psychopath” was a big attachment influence in my formative years.  When attachments are faulty the boundaries become twisted.  Without internal safety and attachment, the child’s autonomy is stifled, and their world feels unsafe, and their separation and individuation are somewhat compromised. Living with a narcissist who has neither impulse control or boundaries and who considers himself to be omnipotent is a lethal cocktail for any child to swallow.  It makes “building one’s fence” and having realistic boundaries almost impossible, that is if you want to survive.  It is especially difficult when the child is in a relationship with a pathological narcissist as I was, because if one tries to set one’s own limit it is likely to end up in rejection, abandoned, and isolated.  However, if one does not set limits, one is likely to remain at the beck and call of the narcissist, their virtual prisoner.  Withdrawal from our boundaries and hostility toward our boundaries are the ground from which trauma springs (Cloud & Townsend, 1992).  Unfortunately for me, Gerard was not the only pathological narcissist I had to deal with throughout my life.  The conditioning I experienced in early childhood and my lack of boundaries left me primed for re-victimisation from other pathological narcissists.  Had I have known the need for having better boundaries, perhaps I could have saved myself the indignity of further narcissistic abuse in the bigger world. Most relational conflict is a direct result of poor boundaries, and probably the most common scenario of boundary violations happens in the very family we grew up in.  So how do we recognise when there is a lack of boundaries in our family?  A “red flag” is when you find yourself giving one person too much power in your life, and this affects your relationships with others.  For example, when a married co-narcissistic son does not have good emotional boundaries with his narcissistic mother, each time he has contact with her he ends up frustrated and angry.   Because he is unable to speak to his mother about his feelings, he brings that anger back to his wife.  His lack of boundaries will inevitably result in conflict between both his families; where his family of origin versus his immediate family, or vice versa.  Because he has not completed the “leaving before cleaving” process (Cloud & Townsend, 1992), his old boundary issues with his mother prevented him from moving fully and freely into his immediate family. Consequently, his wife and children’s needs will always come second to his mother’s and sibling’s needs. Fearing to be shamed (as he was in the past) he will opt for keeping on the good side of his mother and siblings, but this is likely to impinge on his immediate family, which will leave them feeling that they are being treated as second best. Rather than the man’s immediate family transitioning nicely into his family of origin for becoming an extended family, they will most likely remain like outsiders on the fringe.  Over time, this is likely to erode the relationship with his wife and children, who are left feeling abandoned, resentful and rejected. With his narcissistic mother having all the control, in effect, the man’s two dysfunctional families are set up for a certain boundary problem called triangulation. ..read more
The Dyadic Pairing Of the Pathological Narcissist and their Co-narcissist Victim How can two children living in the same household with the same parents have such different childhood experiences?  Experiences that leads to one child becoming a pathological narcissist in adulthood, and the other to become a pathological co-narcissist? Ultimately, the answer to this conundrum lies in how each child manages their “shame”.In my own situation, one child (Gerard, my brother, the narcissist) managed his shame by developing an antagonistic interpersonal style, with his constant need to manipulate, dominate and control everyone (a dependence pattern); while the other child (myself, Gerard’s younger sister, the co-narcissistic caretaker) managed my shame by adopting a co-operative helpful interpersonal style, with a constant need to please and take care of everyone (a nurturance pattern). Clearly, both children are traumatised by their shameful events, and each develops their own pathology and schemas to survive. When there is a match between the goals of the two individuals (one wants to receive something, and the other wants to give something), they will be interpersonally complementary, and both will feel somewhat fulfilled through the other (dyadic pairing). This is the narcissistic and co-narcissistic “convoluted dance” in action.  Just like the Tango, one partner leads and controls the movement of the dance, while the other partner submits.The narcissistic/co-narcissistic dance locks both partners into a pattern of one-up-manship, and one-down-manship, and the dance continues if both are willing to be dance partners. When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! This dance is universal between all narcissists and their co-narcissistic victims, but it generally proceeds through four phases.  In the beginning, the dance is exciting, and the relationship seems to work well for both while in the rush of the first stanza (the Idealisation Phase). In this phase, the narcissist becomes totally motivated towards “reward”.  Their ‘Seeking System’ gets switched “on” in the brain’s reward centre (the dopamine-producing areas where motivation and desire arise).  The dopamine high increases the narcissist’s reward seeking behaviours as they set out to hook their new source of narcissistic supply (victim). While in pursuit of the chase, they also become intentionally focused on grooming their new target (victim), this is an important part of the conditioning for keeping the victim hooked to them, no matter what happens. In this phase the narcissist is at their most attractive, attentive, seductive, and may even display compassion at times. The grooming manipulates the victim to bond with the narcissist and the illusion that is being presented to them.  That is, the illusion that they are in a loving, healthy relationship with someone that cares for them in the same way that they care for the narcissist. After the intensity of the first phase, it is almost impossible for the victim to imagine that the relationship is not genuine, never mind being a mere fantasy. The narcissist’s fantasies become the expressions that fuel their Seeking System, and secretes dopamine and other chemicals that are highly addictive.  At the same time, the seduction and love bombing works on the co-narcissistic victim, and they too are flooded with chemicals (i.e. dopamine, oxytocin, norepinephrine, etc.) creating a deep connection with their narcissist.  Many victims become spellbound, the intensity of the relationship leads the victim to believe that they have found their ‘soul-mate’.  But the honeymoon phase does not usually last long.  With time, the co-narcissist may feel that the relationship is not being reciprocated, they may also feel like they are being pushed around and being taken advantage of.  Because the co-narcissist (victim) is far more flexible than the pathological narcissist, they are the one that is likely to look for a mutual equality in the relationship, and start making demands that can lead to deepening the relationship even more. However, the narcissistic perpetrator is far too brittle to bend to the needs and wants of the co-narcissist partner, their desire is to be the centre of the co-narcissists world (to be taken care of). Consequently, when things seem to be getting worse instead of better, the co-narcissist begins to pull away, and not be quite so accommodating to the pathological narcissist. The narcissist immediately experiences this ‘moving-away’ as rejection or abandonment, and they react by devaluing the co-narcissist victim.  Without the excitement of the dopamine rush, the narcissist gets bored and slips into their baseline status where they are no longer stimulated. With their ‘Reward Centre’ now switched “off”, boredom sets in, and any semblance of a bond is severed.  The narcissist becomes callous and cold, and they strike out in anger at their victim.  The relationship enters the second stanza (Devaluing Phase), and a lack of mutuality is being experienced by both in the relationship.  There is trouble in Paradise, and the co-narcissist has falling from grace for having rejected and abandoned the narcissist during the dance. If things do not change back to where they were (with the co-narcissist being accommodating and nurturing), then the disgruntled narcissist is likely to become very punishing, or they may decide to start looking for a new source of narcissistic supply. The relationship is now doomed, and the narcissist moves into the third stanza (Discarding Phase), which generally leads to the co-narcissist being discarded in favour of the new source of supply. The dramatic Tango comes to its end, whether the narcissist leaves the relationship or not. The victim, although still bonded to the narcissist, will experience the painful feelings of being discarded and abandoned.  They will then be subjected to the psychological warfare that goes with narcissistic abuse (i.e. gaslighting, projections, stonewalling, triangulation, intimidation, invalidation, scapegoating, etc.). But there is a fourth stanza that is not always mentioned, it is called “The Hoover Manoeuvre” that most co-narcissists will face from time to time.  The term “Hoover Manoeuvre” is a metaphor taken from the famous brand of vacuum cleaner known for its powerful suction, and is used to explain how the abusive pathological narcissist asserts their right to suck the victim back into the relationship for further oxygen whenever they feel inclined.  Characteristically, it follows the discard phase (where they physically, mentally, or emotionally, discarded you). When you enter into a relationship with the narcissist, what you don’t know is that you have unwittingly entered into a psychological contract that you are theirs for all time. This sucking of the co-narcissist victim back to them time and time again confirms the cognitive dissonance that keeps the victim tied to them.  The tactics may be either benign or malignant in nature, depending on how the co-narcissistic victim enters the narcissist’s sphere of influence. ..read more
The Pathological Narcissist & Their Victim Connect In Very Different Ways Although the abuse that these two individuals (the narcissist and their victim) have experienced in childhood is quite similar, the personality of the pathological narcissistic (perpetrator) and the pathological co-narcissist (caretaking victim) becomes forged in very different ways, yet both are left feeling the ravages of agonising shame.   It is important to remember that a child’s behaviour never occurs in isolation, always it has meaning, whether it shows itself as being a narcissistic “bullying” personality, or as a co-narcissist “pleaser” personality.  How each individual child manages their shame is likely to be the underlying cause and a contributing factor of whether they become a narcissist (perpetrator) or a co-narcissist (caretaker/victim) in adulthood. The pathological narcissist’s behaviour, as per The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) published by the American Psychiatric Association, can be recognised by the following 9 criteria:(1) Grandiosity, (2) Power & Control, (3) Being special, (4) Needing attention, (5) Sense of Entitlement, (6) Exploitative, (7) Lack of empathy, (8) Envious, and (9) Haughty and arrogant. The pathological narcissist’s shameless personality develops a grandiose sense of self-importance.Although they appear highly confident and superior individuals, underneath their ego is extremely fragile.Their delicate ego leaves them easily offended, and prone to spiralling rages. When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! To the confusion of the co-narcissist victim who is in the relationship with them, they too must live with the narcissist’s confusing oscillations as they go between their Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde personas. Because the pathological narcissist does not adequately complete their separation and individuation process due to their early childhood abuse, they seem to be unable to distinguish between their own self and others. Clearly, they have no boundaries, this accounts for why they treat their co-narcissist victims as an extension of their self, and why they exert excessive control over them, to the point where both become overly enmeshed in each other.  This often causes a lot of frustration and resentment in the co-narcissist (victim) as the dysfunctional relationship is forged. However, the more they resist, the more the pathological narcissist increases the dominating control.  Their need to control is driven by their sense of grandiosity, entitlement, and exploitation.  So, when they give an order, they expect their co-narcissist caretaker (victim) to drop everything immediately.  They have absolutely no empathy for what the other may be doing or feeling at any given moment. Everything is about forging a connection with them, and any hesitation or resistance to jump to attention will be taken personally as an act of mutiny by the narcissist, and that is a punishable offence.  Furthermore, any independent action by the co-narcissist (victim) can become the justification for the narcissistic anger, retaliation, and revenge.   The narcissist acts with superiority and contempt, and this can play a big part in their feelings of envy. When envy is directed at a victim it can be very dangerous.  The pathological narcissist cannot see anybody having anything that they do not have, this touches into their inferiority shame complex and triggers their shame anxiety, which is likely to release their rage.  What they really want is for others to envy them (i.e. their status, their possessions, their looks, their intelligence, etc.) only then are they truly happy.  In their grandiosity, you will often hear a narcissist saying that they had to end a relationship because the other person was envious of them, and they believe that fully.  Of course, the opposite is the truth, they envied their victim for one reason or another, and then they could not handle the shame of their own inadequacy they had to get the victim out of their life. Unfortunately, they are selfish, arrogant, demanding individuals, and everybody is nothing more than a pawn in their game.  If their victim refuses to play the game, then they will be treated as an enemy, and they are likely to experience the narcissist’s rage to intimidate and control them into playing the game. The co-narcissist’s (victim) over-identified personality characteristics, on the other hand, is in stark contrast to the pathological narcissist’s.  Very often the co-narcissist, unlike the grandiose narcissistic, is a modest, gentle, and humble self that does not need to be the centre of attention or admiration.  Far from feeling “special”, their humbleness keeps them grounded, allowing them to respond to the needs and wishes of others; this is an unconscious defence they used to stay safe when under the control of their pathological narcissist. Because of working so hard to please others, unfortunately, they become out of touch with their own needs and feelings. They prefer, for safety reasons, to fade into the background in their relationships, allowing others to have the limelight.   They tend to become over responsible, therefore likely to take the blame for any interpersonal problems in their relationships.  They don’t look for attention or help for themselves but instead become serious problem solvers and rescuers at every opportunity for others. The co-narcissist caretaker (victim) has no need to compete for the limelight.  They learn early how to avoid trouble and further shaming by fading into the background and making themselves invisible, that way they are no threat to the narcissist they share their environment with.  They become little helpers to everybody, not just Mummy’s little helper (i.e. they do the shopping, put on the dinner, clean the house, be pleasing, etc.).  They also help outside the home (i.e. running errands for neighbours, helping the teacher, looking after the younger or more vulnerable children in school, etc.).  Caught in a dangerous environment with a pathological narcissist (especially if it is their own home), these behaviours help the distressed child to regulate their self-esteem in a safe way.    However, all this responsibility takes their innocence away, and they tend to become like 20-year olds trapped in a 14-year-old’s body.  With all the responsibility that they take on so young, they develop a high moral compass and an innate sense for distinguishing right from wrong.  Often, they become the voice of conscience when they see injustice towards others.  They will fight for other people’s rights, and yet they don’t speak up for themselves most of the time. They don’t tend to handle conflict well; any confrontation makes them feel very unsafe and shameful.  Also, because they are highly empathic they are very sensitive to other’s pain, so when there is any disagreement, they are likely to back down rather than hurt another’s feelings or shame them.  People see them as harmonisers who bring peace to all situations, and although they do manage to do that very well, this is likely to cost them to lose their identity in any narcissistic relationships they form.  This is probably why they are like a magnetic force for pathological narcissists, who all want to be taken care of, and minded.  It is easy to see why the co-narcissist, as caretaker, is so valued by the narcissist, at least for as long as they satisfy their needs. ..read more
Because the narcissist (perpetrator) does not trust that they will get the love and attention they want, they grow to trust that they must take whatever they can, whenever they can.  This way of being becomes their favourite addiction, the addiction to their own selfish “self” (Selfism). So, at every opportunity, they set out to grab narcissistic supply wherever they can find it, and in effect, they become consummate “takers”.  The victim, on the other hand, is the complete opposite.  They learn to trust that by taking care of other people’s needs, and by being nice, they will be safe.  So, here we have a coupledom made in heaven, one is addicted to “taking” (a form of  pathological kleptomania), while the other is addicted to giving (a form of pathological altruism). But unfortunately, things are more complicated than that for them both.  Rather than being on the road to heaven, they end up on the road to hell, where they are likely to end up eventually hating each other. The Pathological Narcissistic as a Spouse: When in a romantic relationship, or a marriage, there will always be a struggle for power between the narcissistic partner (perpetrator) and their victim partner.  Regardless of whether they are male or female, this is always the case.  Always, the Lion’s share of the power will remain with the narcissist.  This can be witnessed in many ways.  For example, because the narcissistic can never be wrong, and will never take responsibility or be held accountable for anything that goes wrong, inevitably the victim will always get the blame. Because the narcissist sees themselves as superior to everybody, they deem their victim partner to be inferior, therefore not worthy of an opinion or getting their needs met.   With getting little or no empathy, and with the constant put-downs, the victim partner will eventually feel pathetic, and internalise that they are “not good enough”, and surrender themselves to relinquishing most of the power. From the moment, the narcissistic (perpetrator) sets eyes on the victim, they consider them to be objects that are theirs alone.  They immediately begin the convoluted dance, and the love-bombing manipulation gets underway. It is as if the victim is possessed, and the boundaries of where one begins and ends just melts away with the intensity of the “idealisation stage”, and with it too, their personal identity. This idealisation stage is an exciting time for both partners of the dance, both enraptured with each other.  However, one of the couples knows exactly what is happening, while the other is totally oblivious to the dangerous predicament they are in.  Like the fly that enters the spider’s web, the narcissist slowly wraps their soft silk around the victim, entangling them, and binding them into a cocoon that holds them tight until they are ready to consume their precious commodity.   From the beginning, the narcissist takes the power.  Whatever the victim owns is destined to become theirs; their time, their friends, their knowledge, their possessions, their finances, etc.  The narcissist’s sense of entitlement knows no bounds, and soon their prey will be stripped of everything they own, including their dignity, self-esteem, liberty, and finally, their identity. The victim is reduced to be an object whose main task is to feed the narcissist’s insatiable ego, failure to achieve this end goal will cause a narcissist wound, and the narcissist will feel like the victim. When this happens, they will then feel entitled to hurt the person who caused this wound.   When the cracks begin to show in the relationship, the narcissist shows no accountability or responsibility; therefore, it will be the victim that will get the blame for everything.  Nothing is ever the narcissist’s fault, and you must never challenge them, or you will pay a high price.  What is yours is theirs, but what is theirs is their own; finance, property, personal possessions, etc. The spotlight is always theirs, so tread lightly, because even if you accidentally upstage them, you will provoke their rage.  The victim is expected to give and fawn over their narcissist, but they will not have that kindness reciprocated When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! ..read more
A Victim’s Foreboding Joy and the “Dress Rehearsal” Tragedy Growing up for all my childhood with my “fledgling psychopath” brother was very difficult. I worshipped him most of the time, and I wanted to be with him. But mostly, I wanted to please him, because when I pleased him I felt the connection and emotional closeness that I was looking for from him. Life with him was not always cruel, there was a soft side to his way of being, and this was the side of him that I loved being around. There were times when he would complement me on something or other (i.e. having a bright idea that he approved of. Or perhaps I may have surprised him (in a good way) with a strategy I used to win a game, etc.). In these wonderful exchanges together, I would feel such joy. However, there were those times when my joy would turn to disappointment, when Gerard would destroy the moment by shaming me in some particular way, leaving me feeling extraordinarily vulnerable. The momentary joy where I was feeling connected could suddenly turn to my feeling of being unacceptable, feeling exposed and humiliated. So, in an instant, I would become bound by shame, and a sense of foreboding joy. Of joy, Brené Brown says: – “Joy is the most vulnerable emotion we experience. If you cannot tolerate joy, what you do is start dress rehearsing tragedy” …. “We’ve learned that giving into joy is, at best, setting ourselves up for disappointment and, at worst, inviting disaster” I can remember many happy times playing with my pathological brother Gerard, but there was always the inevitability that it could end badly, and then something tragic would happen that would rob me of the happiness I was feeling. When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! Joy became somewhat fragile and precarious, probably the most vulnerable emotion I experienced. Far too often my joy and fear went hand in hand with each other. I suppose it is inevitable that I would “dress rehearse” tragedy when feeling joy. Being prepared for disappointment at some level of the self makes one less likely to be caught off guard. When the tragedy did not strike, I was full of gratitude for being able to stay open to the joyous connectedness Gerard and I shared. Brené Brown describes gratitude as a spiritual practice which connects gratitude to doxology. She says: – The antidote to foreboding joy, are the practices of gratitude…. People who stay open to joy, despite its risks, are those who practice gratitude…. “joyfulness and gratitude [are] spiritual practices that [are] bound to a belief in human connectedness and a power greater than us.” This “rehearsing tragedy” is something that is very common in most narcissistic abuse victims. I had one narcissistically abused client tell me that there was something happening to her that was somewhat disconcerting. When I inquired what that could be, she told me that she was feeling such joy in her life right now. It was as if everything was going right, and nothing was going wrong. She went on to explain that she does not seem to be worried that it would not last, and how strange and lovely that feeling was. She was able to say that she would not normally allow herself to feel too good about things, because she knew that something terrible was waiting to happen. I knew immediately she was relating to “foreboding joy”, but I decided to stay with her, and look at her feelings of gratitude. This was the perfect time to teach her about practicing “gratitude” instead of the foreboding joy that she had learned as a survival strategy. I knew this feeling myself, it was so familiar to me. Whenever I received a compliment for any achievement, it would spontaneously trigger a sense of foreboding joy and activate my shame response, which I wrongly identified as shyness or modesty. Although I did not know it at the time, I became shy because I had experienced too much humiliation in the form of being belittled, ridiculed, or ignored by Gerard. I carried that underlying shyness into adulthood. I remember one particular day when in my 50’s when I received the highest score in the class for a psychology assignment. The tutor was blown away with the way I presented a case-study. She even went as far as to suggest that if the other students could get a chance to read my essay, that they should. I was feeling very “shy” and uncomfortable with the attention turned to me, but I was feeling pride and excitement for the compliment, and the fact that I had achieved such a personal high mark. I immediately started to give some excuse, saying something like, “Well I did psychology before.” My psychology tutor was really fast, and said, “Stop that! That is not the point, the point is it was a brilliant analysis.” Of course, what I was doing was my usual “foreboding joy” and “dress rehearsing tragedy” to avoid disappointment at feeling such momentary bliss. So, I did stop, and I thanked her, and received the compliment humbly. Unfortunately, the feelings of pride and excitement did not last long. In an instant, one of my peers turned to me, and in an angry and loud voice that everybody could hear, she said, “It’s well for you, you’re good at this, but what about giving the rest of us a chance”. Instantly I felt totally mortified and ashamed as if I had done something terribly bad by doing well in the assignment. This was an enactment of what would happen if I ever outshone Gerard. His unhealthy shame and envy would be triggered and projected onto me. Here I was now in a similar position with a fellow student who felt shame at not doing well in her project. She too projected her shame and venom onto me, and I became so shamed-based that I was unable to speak. I just wanted the floor to swallow me up, and once again I abandoned myself. Instead of being able to enjoy the compliment from the tutor, and experience a healthy pride in my well-deserved accomplishment, I was gripped in a cocktail of enjoyment-shame, excitement-shame, competence-shame, not to mention anger-shame. I can still feel the shame now as I am recalling that incident. This is a good illustration of the multi-dimensional effects of shame, and how it can evolve through specific developmental pathways. One thing I am most grateful for, is that I did not allow my shame to crush my individuality, or my creativity. My mother, especially, encouraged those qualities in me, and they did flourish. I also feel a sense of gratitude that my children are a testimony to the fact that my shameful feelings did not affect my willingness to love them unconditionally, or to receive their love in return. My immediate family are my ultimate and unashamed joy. ..read more
The 3 Faces Of Evil by Christine - 1y ago
What is Shame? It is the Intensely Painful Feeling of Being Fundamentally Flawed Shame is the most difficult emotion to identify within ourselves because we feel ashamed to do so. For me, shame is a natural but powerful emotion.Shame has a job to do, that is, to protect us by making sure we fit in with our culture’s norms and rules for acceptance in our family and community, therefore, it plays a big part in our overall survival. Shame comes with its own built-in “inner critic” that works hard to protect us from getting further shamed by our outside world. Unfortunately, the inner critic can be very harsh, and it can become the critical parent screaming in our ear, telling us that we are bad, stupid, and worthless.When exposed to a lot of shame in early childhood, the child’s inner critic leads them to believe that they must be lacking in some way, therefore, fundamentally flawed and “bad”. This may cause the child to act out accordingly, bringing another layer of shameful feelings onto the initial shameful feelings. So, it can create a very vicious cycle. Furthermore, it can catch you unawares because it has a way of sneaking up on you when least expected. But don’t take my word for it.  What do other experts in the field of trauma say about shame? Dr. Peter Levine (1997) says, “Shame is a very powerful emotion. It probably, in many ways, is the most powerful emotion because of the way it sneaks up and just takes over the person’s organism from the inside”. When Shame Begets Shame - How The Narcissist Hurts & Shames Their Victims Find Out More! The Three Faces of Evil - Unmasking The Full Spectrum Of Narcissistic Abuse Find Out More! Web Of Deception Seminar Find Out More! Gaslighting Seminar Find Out More! Narcissistic Mother Seminar Find Out More! According to Dr. Borysenko (2007) “Shame very much like eating a poisoned plant. If you eat a poisoned plant just once, you never want to go back there again because the physiological terror and horror and sickness of it imprints on your brain because that’s how we survive, by not eating poisoned plants. So, I’d have to say, shame is the poison plant of emotions. And I think it takes a lot clinically to erase that tracing of shame, which really is so deeply connected to the nervous system.” Dr. McGonigal (2015) says, “We often interpret the strength of the shame as a sign about how truly bad we are, or what’s truly wrong with us. Instead, I think we should learn to read that intensity as a metric of how much and how deeply we care, not a metric of how fundamentally screwed up or inadequate we are.” Dr. Buczynski (psychologist and President of NICABM) says, “Shame is such a pervasive issue in our work. If you think about it, any clinical problem that presents itself with a kind of self-criticism or judgment is almost always dealing with shame. And when shame goes untreated, it grows stronger. And it eventually reaches beyond ourselves to affect future generations.” Dr. van der Kolk: “At the centre of human structure are all of these good emotions – there are no bad emotions. All parts are welcome, and shame is there for a reason. We don’t say to people, “Don’t be ashamed.” We say, “Let’s go there. Let’s explore shame. Let’s feel shame. Let’s see what this shame is about.” Dr. Richard Schwartz (Founder of Internal Family Systems (IFS)says, “Shame is a two-part phenomenon. There is a critic who says you’re shit, and there’s this young part that believes it. Usually, there’s then yet another part whose job it is to get away from the shame, and sometimes that will resort to extreme behaviours that can then actually bring on more shame.” Shame may well be “the bedrock of psychopathology” in both the narcissist and their victim’s  behaviours. Paul Gilbert & Bernice Andrews (1998) writes: – The behaviours associated with shame can be divided into four aspects: (1) behaviours aroused as part of the shame response—the hot response; (2) behaviours that are triggered to cope with, or conceal, shame as it occurs; (3) behaviours instigated to avoid being shamed (safety behaviours) or shame being discovered; (4) behaviours designed to repair shame. These behaviours can be self-focused to soothe the self, or socially focused to soothe others—for example, making apologies. Recognisable self-defeating shame reactions: We all experience shameful feelings at some time or other, but, according to Peter Breggin (2014) when they are in excess, it may indicate that we are experiencing self-defeating shame reactions: • Feeling sensitive • Feeling unappreciated • Blushing uncontrollably • Feeling used • Feeling rejected • Feeling you are small or have little impact on people • Being concerned about what other people think of you • Worrying that people don’t treat you with enough respect • Feeling taken advantage of • Wishing you could have had the last word • Keeping your thoughts and feelings to yourself to avoid embarrassment • Not wanting to seem stupid or inappropriate • Being concerned about failing rather than about doing something bad • Being a perfectionist • Feeling left out, different, or like an outsider • Being distrustful or suspicious • Avoiding being the center of attention • Feeling like a “shrinking violet” or “wallflower” • Feeling like withdrawing or shutting people out Before we can combat shame, we must be able to identify it in ourselves, and of course, that will make us feel vulnerable.  This checklist above may give you some indicator of your own shame responses, and how these negative emotions could be holding you back from being your true self, especially as you try to make yourself inconspicuous.  Shame can be so powerful that it can crush our very identity.  Of shame, Brené Brown observes: Somewhat paradoxically, our bodies often react to shame even before our conscious minds do. People always think it’s strange when I ask them where and how they physically feel shame. But for most of us, shame has a feeling—it’s physical as well as emotional. This is why I often refer to shame as a full-contact emotion. Women have described various physical reactions to shame, including stomach tightening, nausea, shaking, waves of heat in their faces and chests, wincing and twinges of smallness. If we can recognize our physical responses, sometimes we can limit the powerlessness that we feel when we are in shame. ..read more

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